i totally forgot this question was still on formspring. my bad. anyways…I never said that I thought you would get over me quickly. If you read my answer to one of the other questions properly you would understand that I thought ALEX would get over me quickly when are ‘fling’ kind of revitalized itself around late december. And the reason I cut off the fling immediately after starting it was mainly because I didn’t trust my feelings. I didn’t trust my judgement. I didn’t trust myself with another person’s feelings. Why? Because of what I did to you. You may think I’m some kind of greedy, inconsiderate asshole who feels no remorse and you may be right about the greedy, inconsiderate asshole part but I do feel guilty. It’s impossible not to. There’s absolutely no way you can hurt someone’s feelings and not feel bad about it. I’m sure if you’re reading this, you’re calling “bullshit” in your head. I don’t care if you do or not. But I’m just saying that I didn’t think you would get over it quickly. You either misread my previous answer or I made a grammatical error that altered the meaning of the sentence or phrase. Whatever it was, sorry. I have a conscious…believe it or not…it’s in there. The things I said. I know I was wrong but in the moment I meant them. Idk if that makes sense at all. If you ever read Catcher in the Rye then it’s like that passage where Holden tells Salley he wants to marry her and travel west. He didn’t mean it but he thought he did…I know I’m not making sense but I’m trying my best to give you an honest answer here ‘cus I think you deserve one. What more can I say but I’m sorry and that I was wrong. You’re happy now right? People are defined by more than just their mistakes. That part of my past will probably haunt me longer than it will haunt you. It’s hard knowing that you’re a terrible person that no one will ever love. That’s my problem. You’re a good and genuine person. I don’t care if you talk shit about me and I’m not assuming you do…anymore but if you do then I deserve it. Honestly, I hear a lot of trash about you but I refuse to join because I feel like I don’t have the right after what I’ve done. I may make a comment here or there just to conform to everyone but yeah. I know I can’t make you believe me but I’m sorry. Alright, I think I’ve written far too much…so much in fact that I’m not going to edit this so sorry for an typos that my have a big impact. Peace & God Bless
