hi, my name is chris bondoc and i tend to push my friends away or start fights and not work them out. or just be a complete asshole. i dont think anyone can know the real me yet because i dont know the real me. i think i push people away and assume that they hate me because im afraid that one day ill find out that they do actually hate me since it has happened before. or maybe i dont feel like im a good enough person to be his/her friend so i push them away till i feel that im no longer a bad person..problem is, ill never stop thinking that im not a bad person. i dont know why i do what i do. i dont know what the hell im saying. i dont know why im writing this. but i do know that i’ll live to regret what i’ve done and that know one cares. bring it 2010